I have to trust my soul more (and so do you)

Things have been hectic. I mentioned in a few blogs that I’ve taken up a job to help fund True Alchemy Academy while it still works to get off the ground, fund itself, and then fund my lifestyle.

Today I was coming home—exhausted btw—and I thought about how I can do so many things at once, and how I push and juggle and am a high functioning adult. Then my mind went to the thought that, “oh I’m like this because of my traumatizing childhood,” and I almost didn’t catch it because it’s a program I have been telling myself over and over again, but today I paused.

And in the moment I paused, I changed the narrative.

I said to myself, “what if it’s not the trauma that made you this way, but what if achieving and thriving is just who you are?”

And with that simple phrase, I took my power back.

I decided that my soul is just this way, and I was placed in my childhood environment for reasons, yes, and that I don’t need to attach my achievements to trauma because that will only keep me from achieving more and going higher.

But often we’re told we’re a certain way because of how things were in our lives, but what if us as high achievers are just that way because we want to achieve? Because we want to build? Because we’re destined for more?

So I paused and realized that I need to trust my soul more, because it placed me in all of these places where I have won countless gold medals, trophies, academic awards, thrived as a model, photographer, author and now as an entrepreneur. It’s not the trauma that made me build—it’s me. It’s who I am.

And so I encourage all of you to think about yourselves in a different way that helps push you outside of that box of always believing that it’s the trauma, or this or that. Just for a moment, pause and redirect.